Saturday, May 7, 2011

Tell me now babe is there somethingn in this air
We're breathing
is there something i wasent seeing

now I feel so torn apart
it didnt have to go like tht
you didnt have to brake my heat
u could of just told me the fact s.
your that Reason why I don't love

Get the this through ur head
My heatbeat is done as dead
No more returning
No more yearning
For u
(boom boom boom boom)
I loved u once before
Nowthats done
I needed u once before
Like my heart
Like the beat
But it's over now
Turning down the heat

Verse 2
There's no way I could not have seen that coming
I promised no more Pain.
just in it for the game
 No more ppl that could hurt me
But yet i lost what i could see ,
So I'm done
I'm through
With this
 with you!
How do u control me
like Knives in a voodoo
Time to release
My rage
out of the cage

Just Get the this through ur head
My heatbeat is done as dead
No more returning
No more yearning
For u
(boom boom boom boom)
I loved u once before
Nowthats done
I needed u once before
Like my heart
Like the beat
But it's over now
Turning down the heat

Soil going to walk away

Saturday, April 23, 2011

I’m not sure if i should stay at friendly or leave. Next school year = DRIVERS PERMIT!!! oh yeah I’m ready! once thats done I doubt I’m going to be driving to school. haha not to friendly atleast. psssh we have to pay for parking. what i look like? excpecially with gas prices were they are. hahaha.! THOUGHT i was about to pay lol.
I wonder if gas prices will be that high later on in the future. Watch in 2020 gas price go down to 1.00. yea that will be the day. haha. (when pigs fly maybe)
but yea school. still debating. theres 2 other schools that seem to be on the list. NORTH POINTE and WESTLAKE but i don’t know. wish i new which had the better offer. My dad says north pointe. but north poite is a whole new BIG ass school which BTW involves walking. Then theres westlake were i kno more people at.. and then theres friendly (current school) where i kno everyone. but the atmosphere is BLAH.
oh welly
Ur always on my mind its hard to believe
tht some1 i hardly no i could never leave
i hate it so much but love it so dearly
the thought of u just come so clearly
its kinda weird how i can say all this now
but i cnt tell straight up y or how.
Im confused without a dought
theres times were i  wanna shout.
I wanna tell u how i fill but i cnt
so if ur reading this now i want u to no
i love u and i could never let u go.


can you believe I'm afraid.?
I'm afraid of being with you
I'm afraid of what u might do..
I'm stuck in my thoughts because it seems I only think of you
why cant you be my boo
i'll treat you right like your new
what the hell am I to do
I like you I do
but I'm stuck when it comes to you.
I'm stuck when it comes to your smile
your voice, you laugh, your looks
everything… but it cant/wont come tru
because you dnt fill the same that I do
 do you?
 I'm stuck when it comes to you!
please tell what am I to do
because you already know it,
I'm stuck when it comes to you.

everytime i think of u this poem comes to mind

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I’d have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I’d always thought,
I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven’s gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, “This is eternity,
And all I’ve promised you.”
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way,
There’s no longing for the past.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I’m right here, in your heart “
Author Unknown


Why do I miss you so
Why did you have to go
 left me here alone with dad
which I'm glad but sad.
I loved you why couldn't you see that you were everything to me :'[
when you left it tore me apart
inside and out. but yet for some reason
I could never frown
like I was always happy
and I think I no why
its because when you died
you were always still alive
you never left did you? you stayed here with me
in spirit and harmony
"ill see you again I" is what they say
and I no I will one of these days.
I hope its not soon I'm sorry I do
but for now my place is here on earth, for now in front of the moon.
but please wait for me
for I'll be there b4 u no it.
I love you just always remeber tht and never forget
that you mom will be here
were my heart is always lit. <3

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Hallways Hurt,, Do Your Part, Stop The Abuse

Setting takes place in the halls of school. Boy is walking, bullies are behind him ready to torment and tease him.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Civil rights

This is a civil rights video about what Afican Americans had to go through back then.
My question to all this is why stay? Why stay and fight for your rights when you know honestly thoughs people who are treating you like dogs DO NOT CARE. All the toture they put blaacks through back then, you would have thought something would click in their heads "Is this something I should be doing? IS THIS RIGHT?" BUT NO they sat there and laughed at their torture at blacks pain. Why try to win somebodys affection and honor when they don't want yours.
If that was the case you might as well not even try to gain it. I'm not going to embarrass myself for anybody, and I'm damn sure not going to loose my dignity and pride for anybody.
its a waste of breath and time. The way whites treated blacks back then was horrible and cruel and unforgivable. I would not wont someone who treats me like that's honor. Like they were supeior to me. NO! its timeless, spending your whole life trying to make ignorant people who are supposingly "smart" understand that black, or brown is a color not a disease not a sin. a COLOR. and if they couldnt understand that they honestly are sorry people in life. For you to come at me with S
omething as small as MY COLOR. Of all things in the world your worried about my color. is really ignorant to me, and childish, and you shouldn't have to deal with something like that.  Now am I saying give up? NO, I'm saying don't let anyone destroy or hurt whats inside of your heart. don't be humiliated by people who just don't understand or are scared. I believe whites treated blacks the way they did  because we were different,  unique and that is exactly what we are unique. not like most. We stand out which to me is a good thing. show people that not everyone are the same. Whites saw that and feared it. So they treated us like dogs to destroy us. and apparently they didn't  because look at us now, strong, Independent , successful blacks who are living our lives the way our 4 fathers would have wanted. 
Although Black people use to and still are insecure about their color when they should not be.
I'll say this now and till the day i die, we as a people are just as beuatiful and wonderful as any other race and if one simple race of people have a problem well f'em because  you shouldnt let anyone destroy your dignity or pride for something as small as you color or the way you look.! 

Thursday, February 24, 2011


If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
i luv this song :D

Monday, February 21, 2011

Never let go of your smile.